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i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
nothing can erase it
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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Picturesque view from Keppel. Taken after a damn shiok swim there. That place has a calming effect on me... Still rmb how i used to go there every day of the week for a while during sec4 EOYs last yr.. would stay that for many many hours to mug..
we had dinner at LauPaSat. Used to go there quite frequently many many years ago.. furthermore daddy and mummy used to have their deli near there.. I think the architecture is super nice.. food was great but expanding my stomach that night didn't do me much good..
Taken after eating dinner.. The lights made everything look really pretty. I think the CBD area with its many tall buildings looks very nice.. even in the day... I still rmb racing there in May. was a horrible horrible race.. but back then you were still around. and that was right after we came back from philippines.. should've enjoyed it more.. will prob never get the chance to race like that again. Marina South holds lots of memories too.. 2hr bike ride followed by 6k run training in June. I really gave up so much for that trial.. who would've known that all that sacrifice would leave me in this state now. I should be mentally stronger.. but i'm not. Feel so much weaker and more useless.
on the way back to the car i saw this traffic light. reminded me of my pimples. lol. i really do think they look like red lights now... heh but thank goodness it's getting a lil better now.
this week hasn't been going too well. i don't know.. i just started on the wrong foot... and now everything seems to be going wrong. not training well, losing motivation, not losing enough weight. annoying really. exasperating. training is so so so so different now. different in a bad way that is. it's just a really awful feeling.. sigh. maybe i'm thinking too much.
getting back chem and phys tmr. i don't know what to think... i seriously lack control over my thoughts and feelings. so weak .. athletes are supposed to be mentally stronger than others.. even more so for endurance athletes. now i'm just embarassed to call myself one.
the ch8 cop show (metamorphosis) is getting really dark... that poor wanrou. lost 3 of her family members... they're killing off characters like nobody's business. i think it's supp to be sth like CSI. interesting..but still. dark. now i know why it's titled metamorphosis...character development is really drastic. now sweet wanrou has morphed into some very traumatised psychopath who uses hypnosis to kill.